Saturday, May 05, 2007

The ugly truth

The ugly truth is: there are no short cuts when it comes to nourishing your body. I want there to be. I want quick things that both fuels my body and taste good. However, sometimes, unless your happen to be, you know, organized, that kind of stuff isn't around. Now that I'm learning how to eat naturally again, my old habits are not doing me much good. Grabbing what's quick and easy is not usually, in my world anyway, what's going to fuel my system well for the day.
This morning is a perfect example. I woke up craving something sweet. So of course I grab two of the cookies on the counter and them gone in a flash. Then I figured I better eat something healthy so I ate a banana. Then I got hungry again so I had some left over steak. Then I went outside to work in the yard. I had no energy. Wore out easily. Had to rest. Fatigue. Damn.
Now I have to rest a bit this afternoon as I need to pick up Clem at the airport at 11 :30 tonight and go up to the cabin. Makes for a long day. So I'm trying to get some rest and better fuel into the system so I can finish in the yard and head west.
It's been really interesting learning to eat to again. You celebrate the most bizarre things -- like bringing home a doggie bag -- and having that food last more than a few hours. Realizing you don't like something and not feeling bad about getting rid of it.
I'm still working on rewards -- as I tend to want to reward myself with food. But when I can remember some warm tea is pretty cool for that. It's hard to just be comfortable, because physically, I'm not. But I know I will be, soon.
For now though, it's a quick nap before I head out to wipe out that stupid shrubbery in the front yard.


Kel said...

Hi Karma,
We'll both get there, it's just one day at a time. I'm still working hard at it too, but somedays the cravings are just too much to handle. Especially at work with all the goodies people bring in. So I blew it on Friday with cookies. But did better yesterday and so far today. All we can do is take this little steps at a time. As Greg told me, it took me many years to put this much weight on, I can't expect to lose it over night.
Take care,

Amy said...

Hi-I just stumbled across your blog and your "fat and then" title grabbed my attention. Forgive me if I am wrong, but I have assumed you are looking for healthier (maybe diet) foods? I too struggle with food choices and what not, but one thing that really helps that sweet tooth for me are smoothies. They do take a minute to make but if you have a food proccessor or blender they are super easy, and kids really like them least my 2 year old does... Plus they are really low in fat! Hope you find this helpful...